A Word of Advice...
Never drink caffeine-loaded coffee just before you go in to get an MRI.
{{{{{{ Aaaaaaaah!!!! }}}}}
You literall lay on your back with a weird thing wrapped around your face in what feels like a coffin.
You are not allowed to move for 30 minutes while you listen to what sounds like a cross between disco and ultra contemporary eclectic new age (get me a wall to bang my head cause I am going insane) music.
The only thing that kept me sane was recalling Scripture... Romans 5.... Psalm 1.... Psalm 121.... Psalm 23.... ( kinda felt like I was walking in the valley of the shadow of death as I dug my nails into my hand from all that caffeine.)
EYES OFF SELF!!!
Now.... you probably have noticed a few changes to my site. Just trying to make it easier to read. Hope that helps. A BIG thank you to Tim Challies. He is a patient man. Not only is he the world's most famous Christian blogger (all for the glory of God, mind you), a book reading/ reviewer maniac, husband and father, live-blogger, etc., etc., he also does web design and knows how to read that crazy foreign language... HTML, or something like that. (Me.... I am techno challenged and yet teachable... but s-l-o-w)
I brought home a CD of the MRI for my husband to look over.
God is AMAZING.
Jon showed me all the layers of my brain... and then I saw it. A lesion that looked HUGE to me with fluid around it. It is on the right side where motor function is affected. That is why my left side "doesn't listen."
I had one done in 1999 when I was first diagnosed, but never saw the MRI. This was the first time for me to view it. It was like an unwelcome intruder and larger than I thought. Kind of an odd feeling.
"In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:26-28
"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 Corinthians 4:17





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Comments
I also like to quote scripture during MRIs. It is a great time to pray, too. I always enjoyed getting the CD so I could show the kids - it is a great learning tool.
I hope this helps the doctors to better know how to treat your MS.
Sheshe
Posted by: sheshe | June 15, 2006 05:20 PM
Thank you SheShe. Yes, I prayed to. Prayers of joy and thanksgiving for all of the abundant blessings in my life. My husband, each one of my children, my dad and his wife, sister, brother, friends, church family... and I thank the Lord for this blog and the blogs that have blessed my life like Reflections, Challies, Steve Camp, Strange Baptist Fire... and all those on my right sidebar.... for those who make comments and challenge me, encourage me.
I have nothing to complain about, Sheshe.
Much love, Lisa
Posted by: 4ever4given | June 15, 2006 05:28 PM
Hey Lisa,
I think I would feel violated to actually see the problem in my brain. The verses you posted are deeply moving to me. God working all things together for good follows what the Spirit does to assist us in prayer during our weaknesses. How kind is God? How much He loves His children! Thanks
Posted by: Amy DeBurgh | June 15, 2006 08:35 PM
As I read about your health issues and how you are trusting God in the midst, and how you want to be used by God to glorify Him, I am reminded of William Carey's sister. You know who William Carey is, right? Missionary to India. Well, his sister was paralized apparently, and spent her time in bed.Her ministry was to pray every single day for her brother. I wonder how many of the conversions under William Carey were influenced by the prayers of his sister.
Posted by: candyinsierras | June 15, 2006 11:53 PM
Man. MRI's aren't fun. I've had my share (I was a super sickly little boy...let's just say that with 3 more hours in the MRI, I'm done my apprenticeship...?!), along with lots of other annoying procedures. You shouldn't drink caffine before you have an MRI...I shouldn't think at all. I should be anesthetized...no kidding.
When I was young, I used to just let my imagination run wild as I lay in the MRI and I used to have completely insane daydreams. It's not as righteous as quoting scripture or praying, but I was around 12 years old the last time I was in an MRI...give a homie a break!
I once daydreamed that I was a hand grenade, sitting on a supply shelf somewhere in a dark supply room. All the other hand grenades were all chattering, wondering what was going to happen and where they were and everything. They were like hens, just clucking away, never shutting up (It was like a military version of 'Veggietales'...or something).
We also would talk with other ordinances and ammunition, debating on when the door would be opened and what wonders lay beyond it's bounds.
Then one day, the door was opened and each one of the hand grenades was taken from the shelf, yelling and all panicked and not knowing what was going on.
Next thing I knew I was clipped to a person's belt and I was bouncing around as he was running through some jungle. There was tons of gunfire and them he grabbed me, pulled my nose off (i.e. pulled out the pin) and hucked me at a vehicle that was driving down the road...then the daydream ended.
Reading what I wrote, it sounds totally scary and crazy and whatnot, but it totally wasn't. I was laughing so hard at my own stupid daydream that the attending nurse got mad at me and told me to stop jigging about from all my laughing. She had to restart the scan because I was shaking so much from all my laughing. My mom got all cross with me and told me to stop laughing or we'd be there all day! HA!
Hope that gives you a chuckle, but you'd probably have to know me for it to be funny.
Posted by: The_Armchair_Theologian | June 16, 2006 02:35 AM
I've never experienced an MRI, so I can only imagine...
My husband has had many, however, and he is SO claustrophoic that he has been put under for some of them. Even the open MRI gives him the creeps and I've had to stand by his head. :)
Lisa, since I know nothing about MS or brain lesions, I'll ask - is there some kind of surgery that can be done to remove the lesion?? Or is a lesion not the same thing as a tumor?
If not, will having this info enable your doctors to implement different/better medications?
Thanks for posting the very encouraging Scripture. And thanks for being so open about your journey with MS. I continue to be blessed by your words, and I gain more and more respect for you each day!
Posted by: Gayla | June 16, 2006 09:21 AM
That's ...interesting...armchair... one could assume that you needed a lot of mental help as a child!
Posted by: Roadkill (a.k.a mike...a.k.a ape-man) | June 16, 2006 10:04 AM
Lisa,
I like the black on white!
I am glad that you now know what is going on in your head. :-)
Please let me know how to pray for you.
In Christ
Mike Ratliff
Posted by: Mike Ratliff | June 16, 2006 12:34 PM
Hey Mike-
She may "know what's going on in her head" but we never will!
Posted by: Roadkill | June 16, 2006 01:09 PM
Amy I love the Scripture on my sidebar daily blessing today: "As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the LORD is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him." Psalm 18:30
Candy life is so short. I look back and think of all the time I have wasted on the most idiotic things. Prayer can be done anywhere at anytime and is one of the most productive uses of our time. I was told to prepare myself for a wheelchair. I would rather "prepare" myself for eternity by living for my Lord in the present. I may not be able to physically run, but I can still run the race set before me no matter what the circumstances. Thank you for sharing your prayer story.
Gayla We do not know what coarse of action to take until we get the analysis from the radiologist. I will let you all know when I find out. And I appreciate your encouraging words and thoughtful prayers.
Mike R. hopefully it is easier to read. As far as what is going on in my head... "ERROR: clever response not available on the server" is what is on the t-shirt I am wearing right now... if I were only wearing the one that said "Clever response downloading... 50%" These hilarious t-shirts can be found at Carla's at Reflections. They are wonderful conversation starters that have led to the sharing of the Gospel.
:-)
Armchair and Roadkill you guys make me laugh even when I don't want to. :-)
Armchair no wonder you are such a nut... all those MRI's.
Posted by: 4ever4given | June 16, 2006 06:29 PM
Yeah. Apparently I was supposed to use some sort of lead 'apron' or something when I was in the MRI. Instead, after watching a Denorex commercial, I put on some aluminum underwear an coated my head with vaseline; it tingled, so I thought it was 'working'.
NOW, years later, my doctor tells me that wasn't the SMARTEST idea. I swear I'm going to sue that nurse for giving me all that vaseline and telling it 'it would be fun'. What a quack.
Posted by: The_Armchair_Theologian | June 17, 2006 02:08 PM
Armchair... MRI's do not entail exposure to radiation... it must have been the magnetic field.
Paperclips, pens, keys, scissors, hemostats, stethoscopes and any other small objects can be pulled out of pockets and off the body without warning, at which point they fly toward the opening of the magnet (where the patient is placed) at very high speeds, posing a threat to everyone in the room... that is why I had to leave my medal cane outside the door. OUCH!
Aluminum toxicity has been recognized in causing stuttering and comas. Since we do not stutter when we type, let let me ask you a question... Are you in a coma?
Posted by: 4ever4given | June 17, 2006 05:33 PM
I had x-rays as a child. You think that could explain the stuttering :)
Posted by: nlwhite | June 19, 2006 03:31 PM
Well, nlwhite, apparently only if you were wearing aluminum underwear.
:-)
Posted by: 4ever4given | June 19, 2006 04:37 PM
WHAT? You mean that nurse LIED to me and I wasn't in an MRI after all! It took 4 years for my 'spots' to go away after those 'treatments'! I'm going to LOSE IT! I'm going to SUE! ARGH!
(On a side note, did you know that Raymond Damadian, the inventor of the Magnetic Resonance Imaging scanner, is a young earth creationist and quite a solid Christian gentleman? Random fact for the day!)
Posted by: The_Armchair_Theologian | June 22, 2006 03:04 AM