Thoughts on Death
My maternal grandmother died early Saturday morning. I got a call from my sister when our family was walking with our neighbors to a recently finished mall that is about a mile from our home. As I got off of the phone with her I began reflecting on my relationship with this grandmother. She is a grandmother I hardly knew. A grandmother that lived a lost and empty life. A grandmother that, when I finally found a phone number to get a hold of her, for I had heard she was very sick and likely going to die... rejected a tearful proclamation of the Gospel as she cussed me out and said she's tried to be a good person all her life and surely she will go to heaven *click*
My heart aches... not at all because of her rejection of me as her granddaughter, but her rejection of the Lord. I know I cannot judge her heart and do believe there are those in heaven that genuinely called out to the Lord in repentance and true belief in their last moments before death. I think of the thief on the cross as I type these words. But my heart still mourns because it seems more likely that she is spending eternity in hell. My heart mourns that she lived a life apart from Christ. A life with no direction, no peace, no true joy. There is this physical ache in my body as I weep for her to have lived a life with Christ as her Lord and Saviour.
How brief the distance between life and death!... I must not weigh matters in the scales of time; I must not calculate by the hours, minutes and seconds of the clock, but I must count and value things by the ages of eternity.......There is no sin that shall damn the man who believes, and nothing can save the man who will not believe. ---Spurgeon
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Comments
Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your grandmother. It's so hard to have lost family members.
I had an opportunity on Friday to witness to my oldest brother. All I can do is trust the Lord to do what is right.
Those links you provided were excellent posts.
Posted by: Diane | March 12, 2007 02:03 PM
Thank you for your words of encouragement and yes, all we can do is trust our perfect sovereign Lord who is abounding in love and mercy and righteous in judgement.
Posted by: lisa | March 12, 2007 07:07 PM
Hi Lisa,
I'm sorry to read of the loss of your grandmother. A very sad but thoughtprovoking post.
Regards, Wilm
Posted by: Wilm | March 13, 2007 06:38 PM
Lisa, I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your grandmother. Tomorrow will be the 1-year anniversary of the death of my precious mom. It's been a rough year.
What you said though, about your grandmother resonated with me. I took care of an aunt the last 3 years of her life. She & my uncle had no children, so the burden fell to me pretty much by default. Your g-mother sounds quite a bit like her. It was a TOUGH 3 years; and I fear that she, too, faces an eternity in hell. Same thing with my dad. It is SO hard sometimes to think that loved ones might face that. But I thank God for His sustaining grace in enabling me to cope with that knowledge.
Thank you for your post. It truly shows your compassion.
Posted by: Gayla | March 13, 2007 07:39 PM
Hey Wilm,
I do want you to know that you are still heavily and sincerely in my prayers.
Gayla,
Thank you for sharing especially the part, I thank God for His sustaining grace in enabling me to cope with that knowledge.
Ex Animo,
Lisa
Posted by: lisa | March 14, 2007 08:54 AM
Thank you, Lisa.
Posted by: Gayla | March 14, 2007 09:17 AM
I'm so sorry to hear of this. I'll be praying for you...
Posted by: jen elslager | March 17, 2007 02:29 AM