Above is a pic of my youngest daughter and me.
My Husband, My brother in Christ
It's 3:00 in the morning...
...and I cannot sleep. Have you ever had "restless legs?"
not fun.
However, one of the good things about getting up so ridiculously early is that it is intensely quiet. A perfect opportunity to read a review on a book about prayer and then buy the book, to pray, to read Scripture, to write and to reflect on the fact that today is my 16th wedding anniversary. Thank you Lord!
Jon and I still often get e-mails and comments on the video made by Fellowship Bible Church that was uploaded onto Youtube (and can be found on my right sidebar).
One of the comments left there was: Lisa, you were the one with a heart of a stone by that time right?...my husband has no feelings for me as he used to... My question: ...your heart´s change was suddenly? How did you recover that love again for your husband?
My answer: Yes. I was the one with the stony heart. Read THIS about how God restored my marriage. My heart change was sudden unto the Lord when He drew me to Himself during that tumultuous trial. However, the recovery of love for my husband was a process. It took time. And part of that process was, by the grace of God alone, changing my expectations:
Change your expectations. Some have linked dissatisfaction to frustrated expectation. According to them, “Unhappiness is not found in what we experience, but in what we expect.” ... “The only way to find satisfaction is to have this expectation: Each day is an opportunity to delight in the Lord.”
--The Secret of Contentment
With the making of each day as an opportunity to delight in the Lord, came the beautiful but slow restoration of my love for my husband. Not only a restoration, but a love beyond my ability to articulate its depth because it is a love founded on the truth of God's Word and not the lies that we are immersed in concerning what marriage is about in this corrupt world. As I prayed that God would help me see marriage from His perspective as written in His Word of Truth, my expectations in marriage evolved. I began focusing on all the things about my husband that I respect. I began to not only fall in love with Jon, but to grow closer to my Heavenly Father as I longed to continually grow in the grace and knowledge of Him... to delight in Him, clinging to God's truth and the fact that He IS faithful and His purposes ARE good.
He brought me up out of the pit of destruction,
out of the miry clay,
And He set my feet upon a rock
making my footsteps firm.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God;
Many will see and fear
And will trust in the LORD.
How blessed is the man
who has made the LORD his trust,
And has not turned to the proud,
nor to those who lapse into falsehood. --Psalm 40:2-4
Comments
A big resounding YES on the RLS. It can be very difficult to live with. When mine got to the "severe" level and I had tried all of the tricks, I broke down and started taking medication for it. My sleep has been thankfully transformed since then, without any RLS.
Hope you sleep better tonight. I simply had to tell myself, during those times of insomnia, that the Lord would provide every bit of sleep that I actually NEEDED...
Blessings
Ramona
Posted by: sheshe | May 23, 2008 06:06 PM
Congratulations on 16 years! Scott and I just celebrated 16 back in March!
Try magnesium for the legs--it has done wonders for my daughter who was waking up almost every night with legs aching. I got some in powder form at the health food store.
Posted by: Stephanie | May 24, 2008 04:30 PM